Behind the Smile (original)

Lyrics:

Notifications? Turn them off
I don’t wanna be friends today
And if you call me I’ll ignore it
I don’t wanna go out, okay?
Don’t tell me bout all of your problems
I don’t think that I can solve them
I’m feeling low, I won’t reply

And I don’t mean to be a Debby Downer
I’ll come around
Stop complaining telling me that I’m boring
You don’t know how I feel
These days I can barely breathe
It comes waves

The waves wash in
Feel like I’m drowning
Everybody’s watching
I’m barely breathing
Proceed with caution
A ticking time bomb
Don’t when I’ll go off and
I’m barely breathing behind the smile

And then they’ll say that you’re dramatic
Chaotic? I don’t know
If one more person calls me childish I think I might just explode
Maybe it’s cause I’m just surviving
Trying not to feel so low
Cause people only let you down

And I don’t mean to be a Debby Downer
I’ll come around
Stop complaining telling me that I’m boring
You don’t know how I feel
These days I can barely breathe
It comes waves

The waves wash in
Feel like I’m drowning
Everybody’s watching
I’m barely breathing
Proceed with caution
A ticking time bomb
Don’t when I’ll go off and
I’m barely breathing behind the smile

Everything’s suffocating
I get hurt searching for validation
And I had these lines
Behind crooked smiles
I’m barely breathing

And then they’ll say that you’re dramatic
Chaotic? I don’t know
If one more person calls me childish I think I might just explode
Maybe it’s cause I’m just surviving
Trying not to feel so low
Cause people only let you down

The waves wash in
Feel like I’m drowning
Everybody’s watching
I’m barely breathing
Proceed with caution
A ticking time bomb
Don’t when I’ll go off and
I’m barely breathing behind the smile

04/09/19

(original)